I'm Killin' Your Brain Like A Poisonous Mushroom

She moved her hips, her arms and her legs

And her fake blonde hair also wrapped everything around

I was 11 years old, and I had never heard of that song

As we listened up, a friend of mine complained about it

He recognised, it was based on a sampler of a David Bowie's song

Her name was Jenny, and everyone in highschool knew about her

She had a badass tattoed boyfriend, and he had a motorcycle

As one long cloudy afternoon, she was beautiful and fragile

She was a different girl, she seemed a Caucassian teenager

As her body moved, my heart exploded and I was hypnotised and fragile

Jenny was a beauty, and everybody loved her in highschool

Some guys used to spy on her between classes

Some of them even said they watched her underwear

While she walked thru the alley of the third floor

I thought many times about the magic wisdom of her underwear

I couldn't stop seeing her dancing on that yellow recess

My friend couldn't stop complaining about that sampler

Girls used to rap everyday and guys used to dress like Vanilla Ice

It was 1991 and Jenny danced under the heat of that summer rays

I lost my will and thought I could imitate the tediously unvarying voice of Vanilla Ice

A few months later, Jenny had an awful accident in the motorcycle

Her badass boyfriend tried to avoid the red lights and a truck appeared out of nowhere

Jenny never returned to highschool, and someone told me her head crashed into the ground

And that she flew away for seconds and her legs also broke as she fall down

Her friends said she wouldn't dance again and that she suffered a terrible brain damage

I Guess That You Don't Care About It Now

An electric feeling burns my heart

Just because YOU are in front of me

Your lips look like a gigantic juicy peach

I want to kiss them, but you wouldn't understand it

You warned  me about it on the phone

Your hair looks like a rainbow made of fuzzy DNA

It floats around my head as if it were a windy song

I want to blow it all my life, but I know it won't last more than once

Your eyes look like a tiny cosmic hole

I want to sink on them, but I can't watch you for a single second

I guess you wanted this to happen too, but I'm too afraid

It's November, 1998, and we are in your cold apartment

As in the last weeks, we talked on the telephone all night long

You said you had to tell me a secret as soon as possible

And here I am, getting cold despite your warm loneliness

But I'm too afraid, I can't believe you are interested on me

All I told you was all I wanted was to be more than friends

You said there was another guy interested on you

And you confessed it didn't work 'cause you thought about us

Is this for real? Are we supposed to be on a date?

I guess that you don't care about it now

Bed Of Roses

All Dried Up And Tied Up Forever

I was 18 years old, and I liked you a lot 

You were so pretty and smart and older than me
I wanted to meet you so bad

You practiced yoga and you were a professional dancer

I was just a stupid boy listening to Antichrist Superstar

And pretending to be interested in the things that mattered to you

I just wanted to learn from your lifestyle and that's why I lied

That very first time I spoke to you, when I told you that I liked The Beatles

We spoke for hours and you gave me your telephone number

We looked face to face all the time and your eyesight was so intense
I was so exhausted but happy

For a couple of weeks, I thought you looked like Mila Kunis

And later I decided to call you up on the telephone

It was a shiny Thursday, and I was so nervous and excited

Your voice appeared suddenly, and I felt about to have a heart-attack 

You were sleepy and exhausted, and I knew you had anemia

I had to smoke a cigarette to get rid of my nerves

We agreed to see Heavenly Creatures that very afternoon

But I didn't find you at the movie theater and I had to watch the movie alone

Later, as we walked on the street and we discussed about Peter Jackson's movie,

You laughed and asked me "What do you exactly expect from me?"

We talked on the telephone for almost six months, and I fall in love with you

There was another guy in your life, but you felt comfortable with me

I was listening up I'll be your lover, I'll be forever, I am anything when I'm high

When you call me again, and you told me you wanted us to be more than friends

And I couldn't believe it

From on time to another, we were dating each other, but it didn't work out

I used to be as stupid and unsecure as possible, and you got tired of it

Then you left the city to pursue your dancer career, and we started to write letters

Sometimes you came to the city and we sometimes we met, but it was different

So we are strangers now

Still Cannot Fix This Broken Machine

3: 00 a. m. 

The soft light of the lamp attacks me
I'm just leaving a precious dream 
The rays of light are so punishing 
I feel my heavy eyes like a fuzzy cloud 

I dreamed I was walking out from the sea 
The magic air of the beach crossed my lungs 
The mystic sand caressed my naked feet 

I was happy but now I'm pessimistic
Life seems to be a terrible dream 

Normally I am able to figure out why did I dream what I dreamed 
But I'm dizzy and numb and I had no idea 

She appeared out of nowhere
As I walked out from the sea 

She's someone I just met 4 or 5 months ago 
I swear I had never dreamed of her before
She's gorgeous and I like her 
But I never think of her 

Sunlight was so intense 
She said we will live in a forest

Suddenly, the beach turned into a big garden 
It was full of silly beautiful flowers and numb bees 
It turned into a vast empire of trees 

Her eyes were like an abyss 
And they were stacked inside my brain 
She said she liked to read and started to talk about English poets
None of them was familiar to me 

She said many names
They dropped like a cascade of words 
They were non sense names 

Cobaylan, Ginsburroughs, Rezapple, Morrijagger and so on  

It started to rain 
I was tired and I wanted to stop walking 
Raindrops hurt me and scared me 
I was afraid that she asked me for a name 
I did not want to screw it up 

She seemed so beautiful and able to please me 
She seemed too happy with me 

And then she lighted a cigarette 
I sensed we were in a battle field in Vietnam 
It was dark, humid and cold 

As she smoked, I could hear murmurs in mandarine 
I felt shaking chills 
Even when I was considering the possibility of dying 
I wasn't scared at all 

Her pupils were so dilated 
And she moved in a very strange way 
She kissed me 
Her lips felt like a burning touch 
And also like a freezing point dying on my skin  

I immediately thought of Ortsinn and Drucksinn 
I have read a lot of pages related to these topics in the last week 

As I was about to speak, she immediately kissed me again and again 

She stopped for a while and I found her eyes so violent and sweet 

I was petrified 

The dream finished abruptly 

Why?  

[Gave Up-NIN]

And The Stars Look Very Different Today

It's 3 o'clock in the morning 
The city has a silent mood
Meg White plays drums underneath my brain

I'm lying on the matress 
The blanket is full of cozy childish thoughts

I'm quite dumb 
In my dream, I repeated to myself 
'I would love to fall in love' 

The sunlight spots spit slowly into my mind 
I was in another bedroom
It was full of magical trees 
It was full of gigantic wooden buildings 

'How much do I desire to fall in love?', I asked to myself

I thought everybody lies, loves and hates on a daily basis
I saw myself as a stupid guy, sporadically writing and looking at the clock
Burned memories crossed the alleys of my brain
Maybe I was too stoned to understand all the symbols 

Suddenly, my left arm was damaged
It felt like if a hot needle scrapped thru my skin 

'Well, you're in love', I repeated to myself
There was a Queen possessing my brain 
She was a chubby girl and she looked like Meg White 

She raised her eyebrows and her eyes were covered with sun glasses 
Her lips were made up like a woman of nineteenth-century royalty
And I thought that she had a perfect vision and that her lips were murderous 

Off this space 
Burned memories floated like a sneeze  
As they crossed the alleys of my brain 

They were also soaked by some kind of bloody water 

'I like you so much...', I repeated to myself

My skin crashed with a deafening and invisible touch
I thought it was the way DNA exploded thru hallucination

'I cannot stop thinking about you...', I repeated to myself and I felt so guilty

You're so cruel, lady!
Leave me alone!

I still feel you
Inside my head
Scratching my skin 
Like a needle attached to a loaded heroin syringe

I'm counting backwards 
Like if I was about to escape from Earth 

This sensation is painful 
I hear this song out of nowhere 
As I remember you as Meg White 
As I feel devastated by the deafening drums 

I'm waking up 
I feel so thirsty that I could drink gallons of water 

3: 00 a. m.

This powerful silent mood of the night
Whispers to me like a drug

I'm too dumb and I still think about you 
I still close my eyes and I see you
I still sigh and I remember your smell 

You smelled like a nineteen year old girl
But your soul was an older soul 

You smelled like burning sex
Like starved Emperor penguins feeding each other
Thru the endless winter

[Space Oddity-David Bowie]