3: 00 a. m.
The soft light of the lamp attacks me
I'm just leaving a precious dream
The rays of light are so punishing
I feel my heavy eyes like a fuzzy cloud
I dreamed I was walking out from the sea
The magic air of the beach crossed my lungs
The mystic sand caressed my naked feet
I was happy but now I'm pessimistic
Life seems to be a terrible dream
Normally I am able to figure out why did I dream what I dreamed
But I'm dizzy and numb and I had no idea
She appeared out of nowhere
As I walked out from the sea
She's someone I just met 4 or 5 months ago
I swear I had never dreamed of her before
She's gorgeous and I like her
But I never think of her
Sunlight was so intense
She said we will live in a forest
Suddenly, the beach turned into a big garden
It was full of silly beautiful flowers and numb bees
It turned into a vast empire of trees
Her eyes were like an abyss
And they were stacked inside my brain
She said she liked to read and started to talk about English poets
None of them was familiar to me
She said many names
They dropped like a cascade of words
They were non sense names
Cobaylan, Ginsburroughs, Rezapple, Morrijagger and so on
It started to rain
I was tired and I wanted to stop walking
Raindrops hurt me and scared me
I was afraid that she asked me for a name
I did not want to screw it up
She seemed so beautiful and able to please me
She seemed too happy with me
And then she lighted a cigarette
I sensed we were in a battle field in Vietnam
It was dark, humid and cold
As she smoked, I could hear murmurs in mandarine
I felt shaking chills
Even when I was considering the possibility of dying
I wasn't scared at all
Her pupils were so dilated
And she moved in a very strange way
She kissed me
Her lips felt like a burning touch
And also like a freezing point dying on my skin
I immediately thought of Ortsinn and Drucksinn
I have read a lot of pages related to these topics in the last week
As I was about to speak, she immediately kissed me again and again
She stopped for a while and I found her eyes so violent and sweet
I was petrified
The dream finished abruptly
Why?
[Gave Up-NIN]
