Thursday, October 26, 2017

She Leads A Lonely Life


I hadn't friends at all, but I was invited to a birthday party of one of my classmates in highschool. Her name was Greta and she had a twin. They had pretty different personalities. Greta was so square minded and her twin was totally the opposite. 

Once, after an awful painting workshop, I spoke to Greta. She had an older brother which also studied on that high school. His name was Lenin. He was handsome and girls in the classroom were crazy about him. I was curious about his name.


I just wanted to know if Greta's parents were interested on Russian literature and then I told her "You're brother has an unusual name...", and she went nuts. 


Greta yelled at me. She warned me that Lenin would know what I'd just said about his name and that he would beat me up. 


Obviously, I thought she was being dramatic -not to mention that she seemed to me so flighty and temperamental-, but I was also scared.
 



I hated Greta. I couldn't believe it. I really wanted to know if her parents were interested in Russian literature. It was pretty disappointing. 

Nevertheless, I was there, as a guest, in the twins' birthday party. 


They lived in a small house in a housing unit.
We were supposedly having fun in a yard that was also a parking lot.

Everybody was listening up Ace Of Base. Some girls were dancing with another girls, while some boys stared at them like zombies. Another guys were playing football. 


I was there 'cause I never had been in a teenage party and I felt curious about it. 

It was more an elementary school party with Frankenstein-like guests (enormous kids with infantile voices and terrible odors, and tiny girls with women bodies), and I was getting bored. 


No one drank or smoked. I guess just no one had tried drugs.
  



Suddenly, when I was about to get back home, a weird girl appeared out of nowhere. 
She used a strange device to correct the posture of her feet and because of it she walked slowly. We made eye contact and she smiled. 

She seemed so shy. 

All night long I was thinking about her.

What was that strange device? Did the girl have polio?   


A few days later, I knew that girl's name. 

Karen was Greta's cousin. 
What a surprise. 

When I was in the last year of highschool, Karen just came in. 

I don't remember how exactly she became my first girlfriend. 
I don't even remember trying to seduce her. 
I don't even remember if I approached to her and then if I told her my name. 

Someday we were just hanging out in the middle of spring, in the schoolyard.

Her eyes were so big and sweet. They looked like the eyes of Margaret Keane's paintings. 
She walked in a very weird way. It looked like if she had crooked legs. 
She played football. Greta told me that Karen even had a football player boyfriend. 
She wrote me letters. She was a baby girl and she didn't care about ortography. 
She was very flirty and got me into a lot of trouble, but she was my first girlfriend.



All That She Wants

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Must Be The Smoke From My Lungs


Yesterday, we ate together and I sat beside her.

Before the food was served, she started to speak about an experiment related to analgesia and thalidomide. 


As she spoke, I couldn't stop looking at her. 

From my point of view -I was so close to her and looking at her left side-, she was so gorgeous. 

She looked like a smart and beautiful woman. 


As she spoke, her lips moved along in a very seductive way. Wondered how would it be to kiss them, when I remembered the first time I saw her. 




I had been a postgraduate student for a few months, and that day I went to eat with some of my labmates to a small restaurant. All of them were about to finish their postgraduate studies. 

That restaurant was their favorite place to eat. The waitresses were pretty and nice and they had amazing memories. They never wrote what we ordered and they never got wrong. Food and price were nice, too. 


And there she was... 


Immediately, I felt attracted and somehow weak. 

My legs started to shake and my heart beat started to accelerate.  
I was like an adolescent falling in love with a TV actress. 



She smiled and then I realized she had brackets. They drove me wild. 

Also, as she smiled, she looked sort of innocent and childish, but beautiful. 


She spoke a few times. She was kind of shy. 


As my labmates, she was about to finish her postgraduate studies. 

She was in that small restaurant with another woman who was friend with my labmates. 

Apparently, they used to eat together once in a while. 


I was about to get married and I felt so ridiculous for having those thoughts, but kept thinking of her the entire day.


I just knew her name. 


Before we ate, we had not seen each other for several years. 


Now, she's married, too. She even has a son. 

I had even forgotten that I was attracted to her.


  
While the food was about to get served, I had to stop looking at her.
Her beauty was really hypnotic. I was afraid to start drooling. 

Then, I looked at her hands. They were so white and tiny. Each one of her fingernails had varnish residues -a mixture of carmine and magenta-, and they made me think that she wasn't really worried at all about her appearance. It gave me the chills. 

Wondered how would it be to touch those hands. 

I'm just attracted in a literary way to her. 


Clean Up Before She Comes